A special thanks to all of you here for encouraging me to take a step forward. My journey started as a scribbler then to a blogger and with the help of your precious likes and comments now an Author.
I have published my first book of Poetry, Prose & Musings last week across all 16 Amazon marketplaces (covering approx. 100 countries)…
Kindle eBook edition is already live and paper back (the hardcopy) version to go live in a few weeks..
which I will notify soon.
Title is My Bitter Moon
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On the occasion of Teacher’s Day,
while I was thinking about the people who had been great teachers in my life I was also pondering upon the emotions that have taught me life too.Sharing few of many emotions revolving and reshaping our lives, providing necessary lessons to overcome the hurdles and making the best out of it.
My Intellectual Teachers:
Fear:
The fear of losing someone, the fear of speaking up, the fear of being yourself, the fear of lurking demons in our minds, all kinds of fears demonstrated the number of deaths I have had before I could ever live. My strength, my power were always hidden beneath its layers which I was afraid to touch.
It taught me what courage is.
Anger:
This self-destructive path is the turbo-speed energy-sucking demon, ideal for inducing pain turning you into a constant rage piercing your own core. The perfect enemy to make you lose in front of your rivals. The reminder that makes you forget about the gift of life and the gratitude towards it.
It taught me to win after letting it go.
Impatience:
As rightly said, “Impatience can cause wise people to do foolish things”. Hard work is wasted when done with the greed of having underdeveloped, tender fruit. Magnificent to tiny, all things take time.
It taught me through nature’s way. One always grows, not all at the same time but they do taking their own sweet time.
Loneliness:
The feeling of rejection, the feeling of being an outcast, the eternal quest of being with someone or anyone all the time. Loneliness makes you feel the poorest even after the countless riches you possess.
It taught me the worth of everyone. Above all, I found myself the best companion to ever have.
Melancholy:
The sadness crowning you for prolonged hours for no reason at all. Past memories of heartache, broken dreams, misfortunes pushing you towards the edge of depression can easily take away the pleasures of today.
It taught me the happy times I took for granted and must work towards making more.
Disgust:
Usually succeeded after anger. Everything seems disgusted after you have been wronged by someone. The nauseous feeling in the pit boils your blood and changes your personality entirely.
It taught me to understand that some people are the way they are. Nothing right or wrong about them. Accept it and let yourself free.
Suffering:
It’s like the glass of calmness you try to fill each time but is still empty because your heart is constantly suffering. Sometimes it is necessary to appreciate what we have and acknowledge the agony to become a better version of ourself.
It taught me not to be in denial and let the wounds heal no matter how long it takes.
Heartbreak:
Each of the previous emotion is either preceded or succeeded by the heartbreak. It teaches about the emotions you never thought you had and yet you are always strong enough to grow using it as a seed. Heartbreaks has their way of teaching the lessons, keeping us humble and appreciating the beautiful life offered to us.
Do share your emotions and how it turned out for you.
I rest you
in front of me
And paint you through
my lashes.
Keep you hidden
within those black windows.
Some unrealistic
connection it is.
The hue is natural
So you, so me.
This time
My fear facing me.
adores me,
approaches me
Whispers to me
That now he likes to celebrate me.
And I couldn’t let go of those
whispering sounds
Turns out I was the one
who adored perpetual darkness.
I was all alone sipping my carefree life when suddenly a guy with fat spectacles, questioning eyes and folded arms came up to me & asked
“Why? Why would do it? Why would you mess it up?”
I couldn’t help but giggle at my lovesick buddy who had been hit hard by cupid’s arrow.
What could I say? I had been trying to find an answer myself. What came over me after I met you? How can someone be as indispensable as the air you breathe, that you search for them everywhere- unknowingly, unconsciously, unexpectedly.
One exquisite taste of her innocence and I knew I had been enchanted by a sorceress. When she looked at me with those angelic eyes, demure charm, and her gullible look it ignited a fire within, driving me wild, consuming me with a passion or an obsession of keeping her safe. Keeping her pure soul protected from the ugliness of the world.
An egotistical person who knew nothing about giving could easily understand the words now “ a true measure of love is to love without any measure”. Something stirred in me that day, and I wasn’t the same person anymore.
Bitten by a love bug, I was lost in your thoughts. Dreaming, fantasizing because I couldn’t get enough of you.
Your eyes were an ocean and I, ignorant of the fact, was a thirsty soul that kept drowning in you.
The deeper I went fervent my need became. Surrendering to that need I emerged as an entirely different person. As if all my energy was now directed towards something more meaningful.
I thought I controlled my life. My goals, my ambitions, my not-so-caring attitude were my slaves and I could maneuver them per my wish but now I feel all this was an illusion. I was hopelessly in love with you and I wanted you to have all of me to keep me in this euphoric bond.
A rainbow takes time to come out but when it does it covers every inch of the sky like you covered every inch of my heart. This was you changing each cell in my body. An unpolished, ungrateful soul appreciating the earthly things after a rendezvous with an unearthly beauty.
I used to laugh at people calling them hopeless romantics little did I know that I’d be the part of Universe’s sweet revenge to feel the power of love, introducing me to a person who would knock down all my walls which I never knew existed to being with. Forget about the butterflies in the stomach, I had vibrations all over my body but I felt I found my foothold. I always had been indifferent to emotions but as they say, the indifferent one is the one who always feels the most.
More importantly, I felt at peace.
The roller coaster ride from being a careless, inflexible, self-absorbed person to the one who only wanted to be a better human, I found my answer:
Why did you become so important to me.
• they don’t know how to keep their words
• Everything comes down to respect. If you fail to respect the other person you’re bound to be stripped off of closeness.
• taking someone for granted is like throwing away something you prayed for once.
No one stays with an unappreciated soul.
