Author: Kanika

I am such a needy person.
I need to have everything.
I need the stars, the moon,
the birthday candles,
picnic baskets,
tiny predictions,
chameleon memory,
Polaroid pictures,
hands that hold,
hands that feed,
a Five star hotel,
a burger van.

I need,
No two consecutive nights crying,
unlimited times of messing up,
A rush to change the world,
a clock to lock good things in,
a north pole of fiery dreams,
a south pole for my criminal words,
the lamps that would flicker
in the test of time.
I need to know my
eulogy before I die.
I need all
and I’d would pack
it in a flower metal box
and place it under a small
tree of an olive family
passing its essence into the roots.
So, when I would wear a
Lilac cardigan I would
know I have everything.

©kanikachugh

It’s just june and the world’s

unkindness is already at its peak.

Protect yourself at all costs.

©kanikachugh

There is a certain
dexterity my diary holds
of frowning ironies and
gypsy butterflies.
With tragic notes like a
daily reminder from a suffering ‘Sylvia’,
and the harvest of words I reward myself with your spring beauty,
it suffocates and rejoices.

You don’t know even
half of your beauty
that resurrects the dead hearts
and resuscitates my old papers
dying below the weight of
everlasting winter flakes.
And my words don’t even know
half of the vocab to describe you
filling up the boring spaces between us
by holding the moon in a spoon.

My tongue lifts to trace
your essence in some
literal symbols
so tender to touch,
so far away like clouds
that fills up my sky
with their moving smiles
and opaque nature.
Making me wonder
if my words will ever be able
to penetrate you like
an holy attempt of sunshine.

Some days,
my diary holds
gape(s) and gasp(s)
and all sorts of drama
in Gothic style.
The other days
It produces a visual
of you as my new Lord
waiting to be worshipped.

I appear, my veil ugly
the gravity around me, uglier
knowing you love the outcasts.
I gaze at you
with fondness.
You look at me
with pitiful eyes.
But I know, I have words
And words will
take your heart away.

I would have choosen death
over sympathies, anytime
but knowing it’s you
I chose to live
And my mute book,
to scream your
appreciation in 26 letters
to pass on the stories
to our great-grandchildren
of how we met,
Because
There were only words,
words were all we had
to take our hearts away.

Love wins when
you see only love
and not abominations.

Someday somewhere,
sitting on the window side of a plane
my metal dreams would fly high donning a straw-hat and virgin cells
and
I wouldn’t regret my decision.

Somewhere leaving the iron gates of my heart ajar would let a stranger of a new city cross a threshold in a summery dress and I wouldn’t pine over taking off the veils.

Someday standing under an unknown tree with fresh honey and unpolluted wings, I won’t blame my ambitions like an angry Roman mob attempting to vent the frustrations out.

Someday my wild spirit wouldn’t be the murderer of my mere wants
and would show herself swinging up in the garden,
shaking hands with the wind and
exhausting every cell with delight.

Someday somewhere while building sandcastles I wouldn’t forget to include a swing set
so I could slope off the yard or an intangible syllable
wherever it’d get lonely.

Someday I’d stop proving myself to you in my mind and find an exit before a furious clock could hit three.

Someday you’ll choose me.
And so will I.

A name
your name
is such an intimate thing.
One that makes me ambitious
to call you with all my might,
with all my rights.
The passion hidden is fiery
like the chimney in my cottage
with the collected heat
touching every part of my being.
A throne, I’d rule half
and half in the vapor of dreams.
A fantasy drawn,
for I am a writer
who has the right
to get down at the wrong station
and vision the bright cheek
in the land of deserts
and kiss all the way.
A mirage of love
and your name as
a new city…

I am facing you,
yet again!

O Dear Summer!
Remember what we promised.

You’d let me
dance on a grass blade
and I will treat you
with ripe mangoes.
You’d let me bathe
in an orange light
on top of a sycamore tree
and I will arouse the
need of staying within you.
You’d sing to a hummingbird
to come and rest on my hand
and I will remove the synonym of
‘burn’ from your name.
You’d not instigate my
fossil memories like winters
and I will carry your mountains
until the Autumn arrives.
You’d touch my flesh
with a light breeze
and I will plant a bunch of Pansies
after naming you Spring’s sister.
When you shall love me
and I shall add you as my
‘things to do’ in all
the days to come in my life.

Remember we promised,
we’d feel each other
and you might burn my cheeks
with too much tenderness.
Remember we promised,
We’d keep each other company
and you might shine one more day
while counting dying breaths.

O Dear Summer!
Let’s meet over the hills.
Let’s meet in the backyard.
Let’s accept that we had been
in cold for far too long.
For,
it’s time for some blushing warmth.

©kanikachugh