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headers already sent by (output started at /customers/0/5/7/kanikachughs.com/httpd.www/wp-includes/Requests/Cookie/Jar.php:15) in /customers/0/5/7/kanikachughs.com/httpd.www/wp-includes/rest-api/class-wp-rest-server.php on line 1758 {"id":3730,"date":"2023-10-24T16:48:35","date_gmt":"2023-10-24T11:18:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kanikachughs.com\/a-mandatory-birthday-post-%f0%9f%98%89\/"},"modified":"2023-10-24T16:48:35","modified_gmt":"2023-10-24T11:18:35","slug":"a-mandatory-birthday-post-%f0%9f%98%89","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kanikachughs.com\/a-mandatory-birthday-post-%f0%9f%98%89\/","title":{"rendered":"A mandatory birthday post? \ud83d\ude09"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I never expected to have grays at thirty-four,
some answers though.
Never expected the flush of emotions towering after I hit thirty
a bit of fire to die out though.
I wonder which ancestry had been
so violent in wants
that I inherited their fire without
properly knowing their soul, their childhood.
A brute force
some forces that I don\u2019t wish to pursue.
It doesn\u2019t let you sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The past year had been
about crushing and cushioning
about scattering the pieces of mine away
and then finding a new brand of glue
about fighting off depression again
and dancing on dull hours of chores.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have rested
a lot
I have pushed myself through
a lot
Tried to numb my brain
but paced my feet.
Not everything is a realisation
sometimes it\u2019s siting on your couch,
back-dreaming on the days you were happy,
you were happy with the people you love
And being grateful that you got to live those.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Today might be hard
but you also got some easy ones
You might be waist-down in water
but eyes can see sky
and mouth can still breathe
It\u2019s still fucking amazing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have, certainly, fallen for me
in a different way than I ever imagined.
On the days, when I couldn\u2019t get up
on the days, I told myself to take it easy
when I was soft with me
when I controlled my anxiety.
Another goal reached without knowing
Afterwards,
being so unbelievably unstoppable
that balanced out my globe of tasks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Learning is such a devil
And I love it.
Every year, there is a different
element of learning.
You gotta learn how to take care of a rose
to keep your pockets warm
You gotta learn which acid not to intake to prevent yourself from killing<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I feel better than I was in my twenties
not that I resent my errs
But that girl was learning too.
And today\u2019s girl is much more (also learning)
a more spiky, armoury reflection of her mother
a gullible, a clever teacup of sweetness
standing at the crossroad of youth and experience
She\u2019s a Sugar mommy \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00a9kanikachugh <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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