I was all alone sipping my carefree life when suddenly a guy with fat spectacles, questioning eyes and folded arms came up to me & asked
“Why? Why would do it? Why would you mess it up?”
I couldn’t help but giggle at my lovesick buddy who had been hit hard by cupid’s arrow.
What could I say? I had been trying to find an answer myself. What came over me after I met you? How can someone be as indispensable as the air you breathe, that you search for them everywhere- unknowingly, unconsciously, unexpectedly.
One exquisite taste of her innocence and I knew I had been enchanted by a sorceress. When she looked at me with those angelic eyes, demure charm, and her gullible look it ignited a fire within, driving me wild, consuming me with a passion or an obsession of keeping her safe. Keeping her pure soul protected from the ugliness of the world.
An egotistical person who knew nothing about giving could easily understand the words now “ a true measure of love is to love without any measure”. Something stirred in me that day, and I wasn’t the same person anymore.
Bitten by a love bug, I was lost in your thoughts. Dreaming, fantasizing because I couldn’t get enough of you.
Your eyes were an ocean and I, ignorant of the fact, was a thirsty soul that kept drowning in you.
The deeper I went fervent my need became. Surrendering to that need I emerged as an entirely different person. As if all my energy was now directed towards something more meaningful.
I thought I controlled my life. My goals, my ambitions, my not-so-caring attitude were my slaves and I could maneuver them per my wish but now I feel all this was an illusion. I was hopelessly in love with you and I wanted you to have all of me to keep me in this euphoric bond.
A rainbow takes time to come out but when it does it covers every inch of the sky like you covered every inch of my heart. This was you changing each cell in my body. An unpolished, ungrateful soul appreciating the earthly things after a rendezvous with an unearthly beauty.
I used to laugh at people calling them hopeless romantics little did I know that I’d be the part of Universe’s sweet revenge to feel the power of love, introducing me to a person who would knock down all my walls which I never knew existed to being with. Forget about the butterflies in the stomach, I had vibrations all over my body but I felt I found my foothold. I always had been indifferent to emotions but as they say, the indifferent one is the one who always feels the most.
More importantly, I felt at peace.
The roller coaster ride from being a careless, inflexible, self-absorbed person to the one who only wanted to be a better human, I found my answer:
Why did you become so important to me.